Adventures, Random Thoughts, and A Little Zen

Adventures, Random Thoughts, and A Little Zen
Boneyard Beach, Bull Island, Cape Romain National Wildlife Refuge, South Carolina

Friday, December 20, 2013

Oh Tooga


The last two dogs Miki and I had were Bear and Jessie.  A husky and a lab mix pound puppy.  They lived with us for around 15 years and their “dash” included escaping from the yard, trips to the vet to get stitched back together, and more lovin’ that thought possible.  When Jessie left us and Bear followed a year later, we thought dogs would be out of the picture for at least a few years.  Shortly after their absence from our family unit, I was on a motorcycle trip that landed me in Estes Park, Colorado.  I was taking the afternoon off to relax my gluteus maximi and found myself in a park watching two dogs play like there was no tomorrow.  Reckless abandon falls short of describing the fun they seemed to be having.  There were flying frisbees, endless tail grabbings (bitings), and short timeouts that would end with an ambush to start it all over again.  This was actually foreshadowing for Tuck and Tooga.

I returned home and in the stories I shared with Miki from my trip, the dogs I met were right up there with the mountains I passed over, the weather that was endured, and the winds that had me leaning into them at angles I was afraid to measure.  The wait for getting two more dogs was about over. 

We were out one day shopping and there was a puppy adoption set up in front of a pet store, next to the store we were heading toward.  My sister lead us over to see the dogs that were looking for their next home.  While the showoffs were getting all the attention, there was a crate in the back that had two puppies, one reddish in color and the other more blonde, that were just sitting there, and that is when I learned that female dogs can be loose with there romantic partners.  Other than their tails, which were identical, down to the white tips.  One looked to be lab and Brittany and the other lab and maybe greyhound, but definitely not “brother” looking material.  I was attracted to the blonde and Miki to the red one.  They won us over and they went home with us about 12 years ago last June.

During this period of time, Miki and I were learning to whitewater canoe in North Carolina.  Two of the rivers we paddled were the Chattooga and the Tuckasegee.  Out of wherever names come from, the dogs were knighted with their names, Tooga (the red one) and Tuck (the blonde one).  Tooga was the more aggressive, alpha acting one, while Tuck was the “Walmart Greeter.”  Tooga was a very anxious dog and Tuck was just happy to be there.  They played well together most of the time, although Tuck bears some scars on his little face from Tooga’s aggressive moments that seemed to come from nowhere, to the untrained eye…a dog whisperer I’m not.  They were hysterical to watch play, as they chased one another and did body slams in the air, as if making a game-winning touchdown.  Tooga developed arthritis in one of his hips before his elder years began, but it never slowed him down.  Every morning, they would leap off the deck and sprint to the back fence to see who was in their park.  Friday morning, the same actions transpired that have been going on for over a decade.  The difference was, after I closed the back door and turned away, I heard a gut-wrenching cry of pain, that only a dog can make.  The rest I described in the previous posting.

9:00 Saturday morning I was at the vets office to see how Tooga had done overnight.  Physically he had not changed and the doctor showed me the x-ray depicting a slipped disc pushing up into the spinal cord, rendering everything towards the tail limp.  As the doctor described possible treatments and outcomes, the only thing I could think of was if this happened once, it will happen again.  Tooga was balls to the wall in everything he did.  Everything he did, he did with a sense of intensity.  Knowing that dog, there was only one action I thought would help his situation and that was to put him down.  And my hope was that Miki would be there to catch him on the other side.  I held his head between my hands and put my forehead to his, as the doctor administered a lethal does of anesthesia.  It was quick and painless and having been through it 6 times before with our other cats and dogs, it never gets easier.  The only difference this time was that Miki was not there beside me.  I was hoping she was looking over me and preparing to receive Tooga.  

Run hard big dog, run hard!



My Zen from Home:  Tuck looks at me funny these days and doesn’t seem to want to leave the house with me.  Every time I do, he sees whoever is with me doesn’t come back!  I would love to know what he’s really thinking or feeling, cause he has been a little closer by than normal.  He knows what’s up and seems to be helping me through my turmoil and in turn I will do the same for him.  We’ll both get through this…all of this.


A reminder:

A celebration of Miki’s life will be held at 1:00 p.m.
December 21, 2013
Blue Springs High School Commons
2000 NW Ashton Dr, Blue Springs, MO 64015.

Miki asked that in lieu of flowers, donations in her name be made to:

Best Friends Animal Society
5001 Angel Canyon Road
Kanab, Utah 84741

and/or

Kansas City Hospice
9221 Ward Parkway, Suite 100
Kansas City, MO 64114

Envelopes will be made available at the service for those wishing to contribute at that time.

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